It has been a rough couple of months. The good news is I have lost weight! The bad news is, it has taken me a long time and have yielded little results.

This is the lowest I have weighed in a long time. It has been really rough because I kept ballooning and bloating to  a higher weight then I would drop a lot of pounds, only to balloon back up again. I have gotten it to a point where even though I have not been dieting for the past few weeks, I have been able to maintain around 224. It always fluctuates about a pound or so but this brings my total to 11 pounds.

I eat a diet consisting of 1200 calories a day. I feel like it has worked better for me than weight watchers because it really holds me accountable for everything I eat. On weight watchers a carrot will be 0 points but when I count calories it is about 30 calories and I have to count that. It worked really well and I am looking forward to getting started again. I am trying to change my life not just go on a diet. What I have not really done is started working out. I can give a million excuses why but the truth is I am lazy and I have been able to hide behind being over weight. I have a reason to eat whatever I want; to be lazy, to be a hermit, to be socially awkward. I need to really kick it into gear. I have to do some time of physical activity at least once a day and that is just not happening. I told myself I wanted to lose 100 pounds and I have barely even made a dent into that.

Something has changed in me recently that I really have to attribute to going roller skating for the first time in many years. I dance a couple of times a week, I walk down the street every day just to get to my car, I can go to Disneyland for a full day and not be sore but roller skating kicked my ass. It was horrible to see that I could barely keep my balance and when I would fall I could feel all 224 pounds falling and it hurt. Some of it is about wanting to look good and wanting to be in a relationship but the main thing now is being able to do those activities with my little sister and my nieces and be healthy. It will be hard for me but I am going to try and I will give it my all.