Technically, I have only lost 1 pound. I started at 230, I gained 4 lost 1 and now I lost another 4! Small strides but I feel like I am starting to get motivated. Just starting though, I am not quite motivated yet.

That is the hard part for me. I look in the mirror and I don’t like what I see but I am not disgusted enough to break the chain. (Sorry that was a bad Fleetwood Mac reference) I have good eating days or good work out days but come the next day I am still tempted. I need to get to that point when it becomes life style change vs. good eating days. It is also hard because a part of me doesn’t want to change, at least doesn’t want to put in the work to change.

I know I will get there if I just keep trying. I need to not give into temptation. I am going to start back on Insanity tonight so I feel good about that. Since I missed so much, I am obviously going to start over from the beginning of the discs. Plus, being honest, the last times I did the videos, I always got to a point where I would just stop and kind of stand there huffing and drinking water. I am hoping to drop 20 by the end of June but I would honestly be happy with about 10 pounds. Just to feel more comfortable during my performance at the Fair.